“I had a choice. Susan was leaving for Alaska to become a photographer,
and I could go.
Jason had just been born. Lynn and I no longer even spoke to each
other, and I had "confessed" to my affair. Lynn was crushed. I was
alone with my choice. There was no choice, I stayed and tried to fix it. The
final chapter began.”
“I thought it would be easy but
it's not,
looking at what's there has become
impossible
for the well is too shallow. In
choosing not to loose it all
I lost all the depths possib1e.”
“My ultimate loss provided the total gain for if I can
just stand the pain
while "again" rages in my mind, I'll find my feet walking
down the street
in the directions of tomorrows.”
“Inertia holds the core people to earth while options beg filling,
glances to the countryside are forbidden.
Life can be a journey in a tunnel if you allow
yesterdays to remain painful
in the hours of today.”
“In dreams, Susan, pictures were
drawn that did paint fond tomorrows,
and while we didn't know our final
result
it was our being that changed our
lives.
I miss you desperately.”